On My Wishlist

After jumping between mobile brands for a year, I still find Nokia range more user-friendly to me. My latest love is Nokia E90 - it reads barcode, it has GPS and it has a 3.2 megapixel camera!!!

How You See Your Own Life?

"Success is a small world, but it demands strength of will and discipline."

Dr Vladimir Klitschko

Pancakeism Edition 2007 Chapter 26 Page 6

Woofhams has written a posting specifically for me - I was and still am on cloud 9! Actually what made me happier is her understanding and appreciation of how I want my life to be. When I was younger, I wanted a hustle-bustle life, a small apartment of my own with my own furniture, a decent husband that is not-too-bad and an angry-but-funny-looking dog that will wait for me by the door when we come home from work. My day would be packed with work and gym on week days, dinner parties with friends, weekend picnics with family. That was the life I wanted.

Reality and dreams are not necessarily mutually-exclusive, but many times not many people are so lucky to realise their dreams as the way they always wanted them. From my point of view, that is not too bad either. Life would not be challenging if reality = 100% dream. Furthermore, if we are contented with a permanent dream, we will forever not stepping out of comfort zone and will never be able to improve ourselves.

My life now might be dull in many eyes, but I am happy and contented because I believe I work hard to give better quality of life for everyone at home and I believe all my work are not in vain - one day, I will bring about a few good changes to people around me. I do not want to be a Nobel Prize Winner or a Top Book Seller - A great pleasure in life is knowing that you are improving every day and the very comforting thought is that what you know now is more than what you knew ten years ago.

Life may test me, it cannot stop me from doing what I want for my life.

Ms Believe or Misbelief?

May be due to the fact that I am the firstborn at home, I was trained to be fiercely independent and unnecessarily compassionate since young. Fiercely independent helps me a lot especially during those moments of broken hearted and other dilemmas. However, I found myself overly and pointlessly compassionate. The irrationally compassion has weakened my delegation skills and refrained myself from making good use of my networking. This morning when I was in the midst of doubt whether my compassion has been taken for granted, I went to check my e-mails and found the following message from an Astrology site that I signed on for free daily updates:

Take your thoughts and share them with those who can help execute them today, Pancake. If you have a trailer that needs to be moved, don't try to do it all by hand. Ask around for someone with a large truck who can hook it up to the back and cart it around to wherever it needs to go. You have the resources available to you, all you need to do is set the gears in motion.

I Believe I Can Fly

What determine whether you can or you cannot? Over the years, some told me ability is the answer. I nodded partially to the response. Others told me willingness to work hard & to work smart. I nodded partially. I believe the crucial factor that determines whether we can or we cannot is "our state of mind".

To share with you two of my relevant experiences, I was horrible in Maths when I was 15. I learnt all formulae by heart thinking that was the key to Maths success. A year later due to the transfer of school at an unstrategic time, I was encouraged to repeat my secondary four which it turned out as a blessing in disguise. Why? Unsure it was due to boredom or plainly my Maths teacher was really good in Maths guidance, I explored the world of Mathematics with great enthusiasm and completed all questions in the textbook from cover to cover when it was just third week into the new school term. My point: I aligned my thoughts and my mind - I wanted to prove to the world that studying secondary four again was an option not a compulsory move for me & I was not stupid. I changed my mind set, twisted a disadvantaged situation into an opportunity to discover a new route of learning.

There was one occasion in my mid twenties, a very unpleasant experience happened before I attended a gathering with many of my ex-classmates who were either UK or Australian graduates. I was probably the only one in the group who has never been studying abroad. I was panicked the evening before the gathering and I was concerned that I might be the odd one out. I pep talked to myself half an hour before the event - Be Confident, Have Faith in Yourself. They might be overseas graduates, you are not too bad either. You have always been the top student. You have just received an award of excellence for your Economics and English. And as I entered the ball room where many of my ex-classmates were already there, I told myself exact words that my sister Woofhams has told me many times before: When you are in a room, treat others in the room not any lesser than you (then you won't be over-confident) and not any better than you (so you are well-prepared at the optimal confidence level for yourself), then you will act at the very relaxed manner just like you are talking with your peers. The message has helped me a lot. During the gathering dinner, people paused and listened to me explaining my views on Economics, and ex-classmates complimented on my optimism and confidence.

Since then, I always remind myself: Rest as you must, BUT you must not quit.